conversation got me here; another night alone in the city

thePASSION.
Sunday, January 25, 2009

finally, settlement which should've come earlier.

so not adjusted to school yet.
life's still instinct slash impulse-driven.

isnt it ironic to have an unquenchable thirst for knowledge and yet believe in the saying that ignorance is bliss?

there are so many ways to be good.
pick one.

the frequency of my blogging is strongly positively correlated with the number of enigmatic thoughts that i conjure.
so as you can see.
i've not been thinking much lately.

my parts are missing.

you're the right kind of sinner
to release my inner fantasy
the invincible winner
and you know that you were born to be
dont you mess around with me.

~~perfect~~ion at 6:19 AM

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Saturday, January 17, 2009

today, was war.

a big shoutout to those who were concerned about my module situation.
you guys have no idea how encouraging it was.
different ones of yall checking on me everyday.
asking me for updates and offering solutions to the situation.
even those who didnt really quite understand what i was going through but supported me all the same.
this may seem pretty trivial but it means so much to me.
thank you.
for always having my back and letting me know that.
it is truly, times like these.
ANYWAY, I HAVE ALL 5 MODULES ALREADY!

i have awesome friends.
and i'm thankful for that.

its times like these
you learn to love again
its times like these
time and time again.

~~perfect~~ion at 5:45 PM

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

sometimes, i just dont know.

revolting hiccups.
they come and go in no particular pattern.
hindering my functioning and cramping my style.
i only remember self-sufficiency.
the mind alone can do many a wonder.
why would i need anybody else?

modules, they bring me exasperation.

this is a problem and i will uproot it.

no, i.

"Dancing Cheek To Cheek" never fails to brighten my day.
watch me go.

the cares that hung around me through the week
seem to vanish like a gambler's lucky streak
when we're out together dancing cheek to cheek.

~~perfect~~ion at 9:30 AM

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Thursday, January 08, 2009

i walked out on my road at dusk.
looked up and saw this scene.
a barren tree and its stingy branches, shadowed against the calming backdrop of a cornflower blue sky.
and i thought.
is the tree's hideousness obscuring the view of a beauty's entirety?
or does the beauty create an awareness that there is the existence of an imperfection?
and then i realized.
there is no value without contrast and relativity.
there is no joy without grief.
there is no health without sickness.
there is no direction without confusion.
there is no salvation without condemnation.

a teacher, a mentor, a guide.
a gratifying role.
ask and it shall be given.

catch Blue Exit at the opening of SMU's The Faculty Cafe.
6 Telok Ayer Street (about 7min walk from Tanjong Pagar mrt station Exit G, opposite the hokkien association building).
10th Jan 2009, 1500 and 1700.
live bands, fun games, good food.

i'm sick of all this waiting
and people telling me what i should be
what if i'm not so crazy
maybe you're the one who's wrong, not me.

~~perfect~~ion at 6:08 PM

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Friday, January 02, 2009

a different kind of magic.

if you demand and expect equal reciprocity.
all the more, you will be denied.

fancy spending christmas and new year a sick person.

there were some presents that said.
"hmm i know you somewhat but i'm gonna play it safe".
and then there are those which blatantly scream.
"goodness, i know nuts about you but according to your observable properties, i shall get you makeup and nail polish".

an unlikely torture device.
oh, the distortion.

good deeds dont go unnoticed.
did you consider a deliberateness.
did impression say "upfront" and "direct".
then, maybe i didnt hear a click.

one of the greatest joys in life is being able to appreciate and enjoy a good novel.
and yes, even though jodi picoult is technically a pop writer.
i realized the reason i still enjoy her works is because they're informative and grounded in facts.
which fiction writer would bother to go beyond the necessary call of duty to authenticate trial proceedings, medical protocols or life in prison?
yea i thought so too.

can i not want to?

and did you exchange
a walk on part in the war
for a lead role in a cage.

~~perfect~~ion at 4:07 PM